Rainbow Baby: “a baby born subsequent to a miscarriage, stillbirth, or the death of an infant from natural causes.”
T’s mom reached out to me on Facebook about having newborn pictures done once her daughter was born in a few weeks. Something drew me to her and I looked at her profile. Her profile picture was of her holding a small baby in the hospital. The caption read, “Bless to be your Mother. Loving you is easy, letting go is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Thankful that I got the chance to meet you and hear your heartbeat, even if it were for a short amount of time, you will forever live within my heart and soul.” My goodness. My heart just opened up real wide for this woman. This mother that carried this baby inside of her and when she met her she immediately had to say goodbye. I know that feeling. It is indescribable.
This July will mark 5 years since I lost my daughter. I was 4 months pregnant when I got the news that she was gone and I ended up going to the hospital twice within a 24 hour period due to some complications of going through the loss. It was so very sad and traumatic and something my family took very hard and something I think about daily.
Seeing these beautiful babies, meeting Baby T, has given me a sense of peace with what has happened to me. It’s unlikely that I will have a rainbow baby of my own and I’ve come to terms with that. I ‘ve got my son, Deacon, my beautiful, loving, ball of energy and he is amazing and more than I could have ever asked for. I am so grateful for him and for all of the people who love and support me. I will always remember Baby Ruby and I will continue to share my story in hopes that it will help others overcome such a difficult time.
During this session, Baby T was soooo smiley and it was the sweetest thing ever. Her mom said it was probably because she was thinking about her sister. I think she was right.